Love

I've been listening to Joyce Meyer and she's is an awesome speaker. Last night I was listening to her "What is true love" series and it just amazed me. One thing that really clicked to me was how she answered the age old question of "well if God was real why doesn't he just solve all the world's problems"? She said and I'm summarizing is that God works through us, we are his people.  It is our duty to love one another and fulfill God's will.  If we want to see a change, we need to get our hands dirty and show love to one another.  Love isn't just about feelings and words but about action too. Loving your neighbor is helping them when they are in need. Lifting them up when they are done. Don't just preach to them when they are going through situations but sit down and actually listen. Love is so important because if you don't have love then everything you do is of waste. I know its really hard to love some people and I have a hard time forgiving.  I've just learned to move on but never really forgive nor forget. In this journey with Christ, I want to learn to forgive and forget and to just love everyone just as he as loved me.

My Body is God's Temple

I've heard many preachers, preach about not corrupting God's temple. For example, I often hear them talking about re-marital sex, tattoos, drugs and alcohol.. but not very much on fitness. Like exercise and eating healthy. I talked to my mom about that today, and she said your outer appearance shouldn't matter, and you shouldn't pursue the need of the flesh. I understand where she is coming, meaning not to be vain and selfishness but that's not the point I was getting at. I meant that God gave us this temple and we are made in his appearance, shouldn't we take care of it health wise? I mean i told her that I felt very unflattering because I was over weight and I wanted to lose some pounds. I mean, God didn't make me this way, I let myself lose control over my eating habits. It's just so hard to talk to my mom about certain things, She just takes things sometimes out of context. But, anyways.. I believe that will God's help I can get in better shape and be healthy. Prayer is the answer to everything.

I hate it

I hate it when I lose focus and let the devils lies into my head. These past 2 days I have been reflecting because I fell again. Its so hard, I'm really disappointed in myself.  I'm embarrassed to pray to God but I know I have to because without prayers I'll be drifting further away from him.

Be Slow To Anger..

The bible teaches us to be patience and be slow to anger. To resist temptation by loving and showing love to others. Sometimes, I forget and I slip up. Oops I know! Today in class, one of my IA made me really mad and even though i might've kept quiet, I thought of really mean things. And, I know that God didn't like that because afterwards I felt terrible about it. satan comes to us in many shapes and forms, and in my case anger. I get mad easily and quick to open my mouth. I need to learn how to think before speaking and being slow to anger. I need to use my mouth not to bash others but to always praise God. This will be on of my main focus as I keep walking down my path with God.

GCU's Prayer Chapel

Feelings

Before I tell you about last night, I just have to say that our God is sooo goood! I caught my self laughing and smiling as I was reading his words. I mean he is so awesome. Also while reading the bible, I couldn't believe that people at that time didn't believe that he was truly the Messiah. Like how can you not have known, all the miracles, all of the parables. But I guess the couldn't see the light because they were blind with darkness. Like Jesus said in the bible, They were the children of the devil that's why they couldn't see or hear him. Okay back to last night, So these past couples of month.. I have been really frustrated at my self for not "feeling" God's presence or the Holy Spirit when i was praying or worshiping him. Last at night I went to a kind of praise and worship service here at my school called "The Gathering". There God spoke to me and told me to not to rely on feelings but to trust and have faith in him. I realized that those frustrations or feelings were of the devil, putting doubts in my head to get me to stop praying. He wanted me to just give up simply because I wasn't "feeling" anything. Instead my God told me to keep praying, to push harder because that was the way to defeat the evil one. To keep praying and believing. So my question is how many of you have these kinds of "feelings"?

Past Past Go Away

It seems to me that every time someone decides to live their life solely for Christ, satan loves to veer them off their path. He brings in different situations to make you forget but instead worry and be in dismay. I myself, am going through this stage. It's rather difficult, and is really annoying to be side-tracked. Last night someone who I'd rather forget, decided to try to step back into my life. Honestly, if it was my old self, I would've given him that chance. But being burned too many times, has given me some sort of a "thick skin". Still, thoughts run through my head, distracting me. I really hate it, I hate feeling disconnected. I prayed about it and I know that I need to continue on praying until this issue is resolved. Anyways just expressing my feelings and frustrations.